When Do You know you've made it?

Made. It's a word with so many working definitions. One of the few dynamic words of the english language one of the words we've left open to interpretation. Made is an adjetive meaning we use it to describe things people and ideas. Meaning of made; artificially produced: produced by artificial means, successful: certain of achieving success, accepted into criminal group: accepted as a member of an underworld crime syndicate. Let's cut out that last one because most of us have no intentions of joining the mob and obtaining any kind of criminal rank. when usuing made to define a finished product whether a physical item you've constructed with your bare hands or an idea a goal you've labored for hours over trying to convince yourself it has all been worth while. Maybe the idea and the item are one in the same you made it and now you've made it. my question is simple I want to know when you've made it what is the measurement of your success? How do you know when your labors have paid off. Money come flowing through your door seemingly of free will, or you've got recognition for being a pioneer in your field, maybe its the happiness you've found upon completion and the satisfaction of doing what you said you would.

I have an idea, a product, but the idea is more abstract instead of the process I have the goal in mind. and I am unsure how to get to the goal. So how will I know if I've made it if I have no steps to measure my progress? Where do I start where do I go after that first gigantic step.....the end is beginning L4S.

The people need Saints.

I recently finished the video game Saints Row the third, and Assassin's Creed Revelations. There's a common theme,Leadership,rising to a position of power to lead men and follow them. The assassins sought world peace though a secret order that fights to keep the world powers in check. Through the series they across the modern world inspiring people to challenge the standards governments sanctioned. Masyaf, Syria where the Hashashins were stationed after going underground. Then to Italy to battle the first steps of corruption in church and state. Finishing off in Constantinople at the height of the Ottoman empire. I'm beginning to feel like the people don't have that voice. They didn't then and the only time they ever did was around the 1700's when a group decided tyranny had worn out it's welcome. for centuries since 1776 we've been slowly handing over power. until the people were once again handled by its government.
In Saints Row the lead character is head of a gang (the Saints)who has built an empire in a large city coming from a small hood called saints row. After eliminating all the other gangs in Stillwater, bringing down the controlling company that was secretly running them. Corruption had bled the police force dry. The huge conglomerate Ultor controlled shops, thew local real estate even the public office itself. Throughout the struggle money keeps people looking the other way and supporting the wrong side of the fight. Although the Saints have typical motives that drive gangs money and control, they're cause is a lesser of two evils. After destroying Ultor's reigns of Stillwater, Conflict arises in a similarly crime stricken city Steelport. The major gangs in this new city are collaborating working together to run Steelport and looking to expand their kingdom to Stillwater and inadvertently bring the fire of the of the gang turned pop culture idols raining on the Gotham-like city. These united gangs called themselves the syndicate, and after methodically dismantling them the saints rule the city keeping the people safe and bringing in more money than imaginable.

Even in Batman knows that a collapsing city needs a needs a focus to save it. When joined together in masses people can build, support and resurrect civilizations. Here the people need something they can stand behind America has fallen from grace. They've clung to false idols, the church, alcohol, slavery, women's rights and politics. politics were the most recent because only recently has it been so controlled. We vote an 3 years later nothing has changed. We celebrate democracy we do not have. We have become Stillwater, we have become Steelport, 1400's Rome and Gotham. The crimes are organized and above the law. We elect people to control where our money goes instead of deciding ourselves. Symbols and faces ideas and gangs, the revolution has to start some where and the people need saints to follow, or we're all going down in a flaming plane.

I use to say look to the skies for a sign, for a signal to make your move. Now I'm telling you to look for saints. A saint is an exceptional person, one who rises above all expectations of what a person can be. A saint's purpose is to lead others to become more like them and in turn a society toward perfection. L4S

What I needed in a mentor

I've always had trouble finding role models I have very high standards for what I want out of myself so I expeact a role model to exceeds those.  I always look to superhero comic book characters and action movie saviors. But as I'm trying to find a path I've at least got someone who can provide a little direction. My cousin Amanda and I have recently come into contact and its been really nice to go through her with some of my thoughts. About school and life in general. She's not too much older only 24 but she's seen alot more than I have in an academic sense. I'm really struggling with my path right now trying to pick a direction and trying to find out which choices are going to get me to where I want to be.

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Dreams part one

Recently I read of was good to document your dreams so I've decided this is the best place to do it. This time I've noticed my brother was particularly hairy so I cracked a joke and he decided to start shaving right there I told him that was gross and he threw something at me a towel or pillow covered in hair and it got in my mouth and caused me to feel hair all down my esophagus releasing a fit of coughs. But I was coughing up and spitting out more than hair, blood and a pen my brother and I got into a tussle an then I woke up.

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Is life an offer or a purse to snatch

Is life something that is offered to you do youbsot back and wait for fortune to fall in your lap? Or is it a purse clearly stuffed with fame and money friendship and romance leaning on a table because the owner is ordering inside. Fortune rains down on a very select few but for most of us we must be aggressive and take our needs and wants. They're left dangling out in front of our faces. We're forced to choose between what we want and the comfort we have. Stay in Consistence and mediocrity or leap the gap for opulence and adventure. I'm finding that I am a minority, many of my peers desire nothing more than to obtain what they already have there's no motivation for fancy cars large houses and expensive vacations. "Well it'd be nice but I'd never get there." They want the 3 bedroom house the white pickett fence 2.4 kids and a dog. I want pleasure I've found the happiness in friends and family that some search for their whole life. However now I want that higher level comfort that comes with money I want the lax lifestyle that comes with passive income and I want the joys of unemployment. A tall order? I don't think so just a bit of perseverance and entrepreneurial thinking I can do anything. Now what I'm worried about is taking the necessary steps to get where I want to be because in the past not thinking ahead has kept me out of a few of the places that I wanted to be.

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Changes

Ezio is finally home with me. It's so nice to have my pup its been a long time coming. He's a husky and will be 1 year September 13th. I'm cleaning the basement out so I can move down there and I'm also looking for another job to fund my short term aspiration of DJing/ becoming a music producer. My recording studio seems so close and I have until my birthday to open it =/. I'm doing well with saving but my mom keeps taking my money. This family is still draining me. there has to be a better way to get to my dreams and obtain that currency then this day to day struggle.

New Man New Dream

I'm supporting my mother and brother, but I'm starting to realize I shouldn't my mom owes me $1500 and I don't ever see it coming back. These troubles are not my fault and I shouldn't have to work my ass off for them. I have a dream I need to support I've been very careful not to accidentally start a family but here I am supporting one anyways. This new dream has come with a new persona. I'm a new man but now I have to decide whether its acceptable for a growing expanding person to leave those who have taken care of him in his youth because he has new ambitions that they take away from. They work me to the bone trying to help me clean the house they've trashed, they take my money to pay bills that should be covered. I've ascended to the position of man of the family and I know for a fact that this position will drain anyone who stays there too long. I want to be rich I have expensive short term goals and I have a future family to think about. Should I be concerned with this drain of a family? they've got a losing equation and have now put me in the mix.

I think its time for me to become independent but I don't think I can do it with them draining me. I'm going to start planning my life without them. But that means I have to cut them out of the plan I've got. I've got no room to plan for them but here I am giving them money to support them selves it's so much easier if I support myself...and my dog I forget about him a lot but he's an expense for me now and I think the new responsibility of him is all I should be worried about. not this family I didn't create its unreasonable for a son to be half grown and have to worry about supporting his parents and brother. I should never have to support my brother,and in this day and age my parent either. Grown working age folks should be able to support themselves. my mom works 3 jobs and dad has been unemployed for 10 years this isn't my fault.

the other night I had this dream where a friend we'll call her CH and it was a 1950's setting where she met me at the door with a martini and a kiss in a sun dress and apron and we had 4 kids one on the way and the house was huge and the bills were paid and that was a great storybook life for me. My job was working for myself, and I was very wealthy. The 50's aren't exactly what I was looking for but all the family and money is what i want I was in my thirties and happy and for that to happen I can't waste time with my family draining me.