here it is

In love tired of looking and its FBO. Im so happy to finally get settled down...shes perfect and its nice to know i'll never have to look again dating sucks and im tired of all the hookups. Shes like a breathe of fresh air. She knows me and i know her there we're gonna have to increase her libido like 400% but thats okay it'll come as she starts to prime for children. And then i'll have her kids and we'll b married and rich and life will b perfect =] im excited for the future once again and im ready to finish this searching thing. Im horny all the time shes hott and she loves how i put it on her. I like the wonderful things shes does for me and we're equal in the kitchen as well as the bedroom and work force. I think shes the best girlfriend ever....i know shes the best girlfriend ever and as soon as im sure i can provide the life she deserves imma put a ring on it cause i like it.

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sex

Shes a newbie in bed im her second ever. But she rides me like a pro. As of last night she can take most of me from any angle. Her last bf could only go about 5min whereas i can go all nite. Ive always been a slow lover but shes got me fuckin her like a jack rabbit. Shes so tight she can get me when she wants too. Got me wanting to scream everytime positons change, i think im adddicted to her...she doesnt want me to eat her out or give me head but i think shes slowly changing her mind and even is she doesnt she can jerk me like a pornstar.

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I work too much...and dont have enuff sex

I work 12 hour days monday tuesday and every other wednesday. I'll get to see my friends or my girlfriend like I want to, but im making excessive amounts of money. They always told me money would never buy happiness. And it's true I'm not happy. I'm miserable I'm tired and hungry. I'll have any of the time to do things I'd like to do, amd i keep spending all the money I make. But I'm going to save it instead of going to europe this summer I'm going to work somewhere exotic perhaps hawaii. I can't wait I need the money. And christian wants to do it too. We don't quite click like I'd like but she's pretty smart funny and likes me for me. Her libido isn't as high as mine which is kind of a bummer. However she does like it as much as I do. I'd like to go down on her and get her to go down on me. But I feel like that'll take a lot of time. So ill wait around see if her sex drive devlops.

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I can make this work

She's not physical...doesn't like touching kissing and being intimate like i do. I need sex. Im an animal with primal wants and needs as well as an emotional gap that yeilds to sexual activity. She is in the early stages of relationships and i am lightyears past being advanced. I know what i want and how to get it. My sex drive has a hard time with multiple women trying to keep up much less one that doesn't. I know i need to cool my jets or move on but i want her to be the one and i want to give her the pleasure of intimacy. But tis a gift one must willingly accept. I know if i can wait things will change and she'll be come my nympho but how long can i wait??

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work

Its volunteer slavery for slips of green paper. It sucks you feeln locked in and ur outlooks are bleek...when ppl work for me they will feel like they're having fun.

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falling

I don't know if I like this. I'm starting to fall in love again. But it's different this time, I'm feeling butterflies and I can't seem to get her off my mind. I wanna sing to her and about her. However, at the same time I'm scared to death of being hurt all over again. She seems so nice and she cares about me. But I can't help but wonder if it's all a show. But I feel like talking caution to the wind. So I'm gonna dive headlong into this 1, and let the emotions wash over me. When I'm with her I feel renewed. But all I can do is look at her face, those gorgeous eyes stand back at me deep color like none other, and they hear that I dyed falling in her face. Redhead blonde or brunette I feel like I can lay claim on her already. I have to force myself to remember the this is just a test drive. This particular model will be going home with me For just a little bit longer.

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DJ got me fallin in love again

Well here I am again bloggin it feels so good. Alright so i've liked this girl for a while right but she had a boyfriend and i was settling nicely into a little brother role. But recently she dumped him because they were never around each other. All of a sudden im gettin butterflies around her and moments cuddling are giving me emotions I haven't felt in years. But I didnt wanna make things akward so I stuck to my role as lil bro. Until one nite, just a few days ago, cuddling turned touchy feely...nothing x rated but my emotions were fairly on display. To my surprise the feelings were reciprocated. I was estatic, and a couple of day negotiating the relationship's beginnings led to what we have now, as of december 8th 2010 we are dating but its not facebook official for fear of it being to early for the ex. I will keep this as the start of the relationship unless she would like to start it earlier and i will remeber dec 8 as the anniversary.

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new path

I know its been a while but i needed to say this...ikm starting to fall again and i wanted to make note of it. There is a new girl n my life and we're extremely compatable. I'm just really afraid of being hurt again.

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REVENGE

I fell in love at 15 or so, gave up 3 years of my life, and when she got tired of me she left me. i thought about it and analyzed it for quite sometime. that was months ago now I've realized she was a total dumb-ass for leaving me, i gave her everything she wanted but i guess that gets boring. its bothered me on and off over these 7 months but I cant seem to close the case. revenge is on my mind about 12 hours a day. I can't seem to understand why it bothers me so. I've never been one to care so much, but i could always hold a grudge and it usually festers inside me till the other person attempts to correct it. this is the first time its consumed my life. my greatness is my destiny but i cant get to it w/o moving on from this girl. will getting her back for all the things she did to me going to help me? is it the only way? how does one move on from this predicament? as of right now my journey is fueled w/ this hatred. i'm moved to become something great, claiming wealth and power to destroy a life somewhere else far separated from mine by the time it comes. but the rest will go to making a better life for others. most people would see me as hero for building better tomorrows all across the globe but inside i would be a monster for ruining one life and devastating the lives attached. I would never kill or harm anyone, but the pain needs to be felt, in the pocketbook, in the heart, in the mind. a dark mind will create a dark world unless i can find another way to deal with my wants for revenge.

Is it fate?

I had a dream last night. One of those crazy dreams that makes you sad when you wake up b/c its not real. I dreamt that my cousin josiah whom I see from time to time had opened up a night club in a newly developed strip mall and he let me in v.I.p. but that's not what made me sad. I met a girl inside who was in on of my winter quarter classes. I'll just use her initials (KB). And we danced for a couple of hours and I took her outside and we walked and talked and all around hit it off until I came across my mother and father playing some weird game. Unfortunately her and I got seperated and she went back to the club where I found her later complaing about how most of the guys in this club just don't get her. I knew she wasn't tlking about me b/c the sight of me brought a smile to her face. She walked over amd gave me quite a warm embrace which woke me up.
Now I'm not to supersticious and fate rarely speaks to me but as I came too, much earlier than usual I might add, I felt drawn toward my dream girl I sent her a facebook message and a friend request and hopefully I'm not wierding her out but I felt called into action by this dream. Now I can't help but wonder if I'm crazy but idk how else to go about this. She's very attractive and seemed to b a nice person I feel obligated to take a chance. So tell me is this sumthing I made up in my head or is it fate?

road to the MD

I'm currently a lab tech who puts peeps to sleep for money i monitor them and make sure they don't die. I love it i love the scrubs and the association with people. I'm a big fan of the TV show scrubs, and because of all the steps I'm taking I'm most likely to become a doctor. i would love to be a surgeon, like Turk hahaha. but really I only want to be a doctor now, somehow its become a focus and Idk if I'm capable of getting there but I'm gonna give it a hell of a swing.

It's the dawning of the age of SUN

Who can make the sun rise,sprinkle it with chocolate add a miracle or two? idk either but its beautiful. the weather the air the trees the life. i'm lovin' it its sooooo beautiful outside and all i wanna do is run. run for miles and days and see every inch of this great word i live in. i know there are a few things that i may never see, but every time i watch the sun rise on a foggy 50 degree morning i can't help but wonder what else is out there. all life revolves around the sun, its warm and produces vitamins and its a modern marvel. society could learn from it but we're working on that. next time u step outside look up. see what kind of inspiration you get. i was moved to make a change this morning, lets see how it works out.

O_O the snozberries taste like snozberries

At the back of my head there is a record playing, old and slightly scratched. Aladin's voice crackels to live singin an all to familiar melody; "I can show you a world, sparkling, shimmering, splendid...". My tatse buds have reacted to this explosion of flavor, by using music, and how appropriate. I practically had to build the road to this point myself cracking the shells and pulling off legs, burning my fingers to light a candle. all steps in a long process to get to the treasure, pale tender, juicy, treasure. my fingers are sore from digging into the crevases of the crustacean and all my work has reaped such little reward. although the slippery muscles are so few and far between they are delicious a bit salty and unlike any taste found on land, dipped in butter its just short of heaven on earth. I let the first bits slide over my lips, only to find its chewy, not too chewy, but enough to make it more fun to eat. My glory and success is short lived now that the morsel is gone I must attempt to retrive more from the carcus. I ignore the twinges of pain in my joints as i attempt to crack open a leg this time. slowly i cut along the natural crease to slpit the shell, as I peel back the shell a long stringy muscle is revealed. It seems i've hit the motherload. as i go to remove the find from my excavation site i let the shell slip it slides along my finger and cuts me...blast. The salty excressions seep in, there is no blood but it stings sumthing aweful.

WWSCD???

do you ever find yourself in a difficult situation such as a bomb in ur car that you have thirty seconds to defuse? I often find myself in these tough situations and I've learned to deal with them by using my new motto WWSCD, or what would Sean Connery do? I was pondering this thought while teetering, on a board weighted cleverly on the other end with sand that as I a approached, lightened, over a tankful of sharks this morning and thought I would share it with you after lunch.

The struggle to be motivated to struggle

Life is a constant, it's the same for everyone. your born, you suffer, and you die. There doesn't seem to be much else to life when you look through that looking glass. How do you look at it? is it a constant complaint or is there more to life sickness and death. How many of us can honestly say we've enjoyed every second of life? Now consider how many minutes you've wasted on your knees staring up at the sky looking for signs of the one you pray to in a vain attempt to convince yourself that you're so important that he will change his plans for you. When is the last time you walked through the rain just to feel nature grab hold of you and seep into your soul? Now when was the last time you complained about the rain? see what I mean we just accept that things should be handed to us. But they almost never are, so why do we expect it? I sit, every day, in the RPAC watching people walk by as I do my work and studying and I've found that no one notices anyone else. The majority of people are on their own agenda that shouldn't dare be interrupted by others.
I bring all this up because all to often I feel all of these emotions and cannot get past them. They always lead to a bout of demotivation, nothing seems worth doing and nothing seems worth my time or effort. Somewhere in my haze I find motivation in the betterment of myself and vow never to let it go again. Right now I'm on the up swing and this current of motivation that is running through me at the present has lasted longer than usual. I think I've finally found myself. After my last break up, which still burns to think about, I told my self I was going to be the best man any woman could ever want. I got back in the weight room, I started running again, I picked up my love for learning languages all over again and laid out a life plan for myself. But this is the most difficult thing I've ever done. getting up sometime before 6 am everyday, to go on a run is difficult, finding some way to engage all my muscles every other day is more difficult and keeping my self on my path is the most difficult. You have to know when to hold up the fort walls and when to retreat. So far I stood my post as I was told, go to school, get good grades, go to college, get a job. Well I want to be wealthy, and that's not the path to wealthy, nor is it the path to brilliant, or fit.
What is the difference between cocky and confident? hopefully I'm walking it well enough. But inside I know I'm capable of achieving all of the things I want out of this life. My goals, some extravagant, some modest, some understandable, are many (see my list of things to do before I die on FB in my notes) and in my mind attainable. But my struggle is a long on and I need support, but finding the right system of support is difficult. I decided I was going to write this post last night when I couldn't see the stars. I find solace in the stars, although far away, there was a air of guidance in the summer sky. The consetellations resting over me as observers, or protectors, or just mindful creators. My stars, lay in Orion (the hunter). He was the first constellation I could find consistantly, and is the most recognizable for me as seen above.

In my mind...

So I got bored today and thought I'd express some views about girls. So its come to my attention that girls don't need men anymore, boys we're obsolete. Anything that men can contribute to society and humanity can be artificially reproduced or its been stored and frozen so when we die off the ladies can still procreate. the things a woman needs she can find in other women or in a store or in a magazine. I'm just finding that girls are more willing to blow off a guy than even in high school. There was a time when a good looking dude such as myself at least got lunch or could end up friends with a girl if he was daring enough to say hello. More and more the girls are assuming that we guys want a relationship, and the knee jerk reaction is to stop responding to calls, txts, and FB, messages. can't we meet somewhere other than at a party wasted beyond belief and just be friends w/o being confined to friendship?
that's the other thing that bothers me about all of this. the lady always wants to label it as soon as we meet. College is all about finding yourself and exploring the world you live in. here's a tip; just see where life leads you. don't be to quick to jump in and out of situations. Grab the wind and ride the breeze. the best ways to get to know someone are to date them. but a date doesn't have to be more than that. go out have a good time and see where your connection takes you. whether it be friends or something more let it happen. Think of all the people you pass up by saying, "oh, well I can't because I like someone" or "only as friends". Don't label life...its a long slope that can go two ways. fight it, trip fall and roll all the way down, ride it, and make the leap at the end landing on the backramp to cheers of your supporters. When a guy asks for your number give it to him, your real one, and send him something back, go bowling and see how it feels. go out dancing with some new people. wouldn't be easier if you had more to choose from?

In the morning I'm makin' waffles

I love Waffle House. This Particular Waffle House was chosen as the the dirtiest one in the country. But they have other problems to deal with at the 161 waffle house such as drug busts and criminals coming through looking for refuge. When I learned this information I decided to stop going to this Waffle House lucky around the time I made this decision there was a new one built at Polaris.
Waffle House doesn't just represent food for me it represents a whole meal, breakfast. whenever my friends and I have an unexpected day off we gather for a late breakfast at Waffle House. When my family needs to pick up breakfast on the road, we stop at Waffle House. A good greasy home-style breakfast is my gift to my self for getting started each day on a yogurt or a bagel as I do most days of the week. The small diner setting makes you feel like it was built just for you and your buds. It's where my friends go when we want breakfast for dinner. Even though me and my friends have only been around since the late 80's at most we're very aware that the restaurant's decor is straight out of the 70's and that makes it feel like its been around forever. From the brown, cracking, fake leather seats to the globular lights hanging from the ceiling walking into a Waffle House is taking a step back in time. The dirty floor and sticky tables and place mats add to a grungy air the place has. "it makes you feel like you might catch something if we stay here too long" observed one of my friends, but none the less we're drawn in for the grits bacon toast sausage and of course the waffles. Once you bite into the food you forget about the tacky framed newspapers on the walls and the lame reoccurring yellow and black theme, and the WH has regained its luster from when it was first opened.
WH always has this strange way of making you feel so much hungrier than you actually are. Consequently you order way more food than you can eat, but its all good because it was cheap anyways. But as you near the end of your food journey and your eyes glaze over and the yellow tint of the room begins to claim your consciousness you realize that you've never been so happy or so stuffed in your life. WH is a place that has offered my family, friends and I some of the old fashioned things that make you feel good. This comfort food as they call it, is a wonderful conversation setting or a nice refuge from everyday stress. However, all of the people who engage in Waffle House understand the risks involved and these acts should not be recreated by anyone who has a weak or small stomach.

I'm in my fridge....everybody take a look cause i'm searchin for food

I wanna know what you think...What's my fridge saying to you?
Everyone who has been in my house has noticed the cookies, well cookie dough. I have quite the surplus from my holiday excursions, however I do love cookies so it would be a fair assumption. what you don't see in the picture is more juice, I have roughly 8 cartons of juice because it's all I drink. When I ran track in high school the first thing i cut out of my diet was pop. soda and carbonation are like the worst things an athlete can put into his body, it dehydrates you and blocks blood cells from absorbing oxygen. Drinkers would notice more fatigue when trying to perform. track was my life for four years, it'll be weird to do nothing in the spring. the rest of the contents of my fridge are mostly leftover meals so that i can eat w/o going too far.

So what do you think? do you wanna be facebook friends? or are you a cookie hater? A couple of things you may pick up from the outside of my fridge...I listen to country music, I have a country play-list written up and posted on my fridge. I also have a grocery list from forever ago which would suggest I'm a procrastinator, or broke, I am both unfortunately. you would have to venture beyond the kitchen to learn much more about me. you'll probably figure out that I'm a bit messy but i assure you I'm an adaptive slob. I imitate the actions of those I live with, my previous roommate was sloppy so currently I am too. in clean living conditions I am very neat. You may also notice the focus on the front of the living room where i spend most of my time. i watch a little TV or play some video games before bed most nights. only an hour or two then off to bed. once @ my bed side all your thoughts about me would change....but I'll save all of that for the video post I'll be making later tonight.

Pepsi, it makes ya feel good. (tester post)

Despite most people's common sense and all the doctors telling you that cola errodes metal, and your insides, Pepsi and Coke are goning to drill it in to you absorbent mind that you feel good when you drink thier products. Personally i've never felt good after a coke or pepsi but if jimmy fallon feels it it must be the norm.