REVENGE

I fell in love at 15 or so, gave up 3 years of my life, and when she got tired of me she left me. i thought about it and analyzed it for quite sometime. that was months ago now I've realized she was a total dumb-ass for leaving me, i gave her everything she wanted but i guess that gets boring. its bothered me on and off over these 7 months but I cant seem to close the case. revenge is on my mind about 12 hours a day. I can't seem to understand why it bothers me so. I've never been one to care so much, but i could always hold a grudge and it usually festers inside me till the other person attempts to correct it. this is the first time its consumed my life. my greatness is my destiny but i cant get to it w/o moving on from this girl. will getting her back for all the things she did to me going to help me? is it the only way? how does one move on from this predicament? as of right now my journey is fueled w/ this hatred. i'm moved to become something great, claiming wealth and power to destroy a life somewhere else far separated from mine by the time it comes. but the rest will go to making a better life for others. most people would see me as hero for building better tomorrows all across the globe but inside i would be a monster for ruining one life and devastating the lives attached. I would never kill or harm anyone, but the pain needs to be felt, in the pocketbook, in the heart, in the mind. a dark mind will create a dark world unless i can find another way to deal with my wants for revenge.

Is it fate?

I had a dream last night. One of those crazy dreams that makes you sad when you wake up b/c its not real. I dreamt that my cousin josiah whom I see from time to time had opened up a night club in a newly developed strip mall and he let me in v.I.p. but that's not what made me sad. I met a girl inside who was in on of my winter quarter classes. I'll just use her initials (KB). And we danced for a couple of hours and I took her outside and we walked and talked and all around hit it off until I came across my mother and father playing some weird game. Unfortunately her and I got seperated and she went back to the club where I found her later complaing about how most of the guys in this club just don't get her. I knew she wasn't tlking about me b/c the sight of me brought a smile to her face. She walked over amd gave me quite a warm embrace which woke me up.
Now I'm not to supersticious and fate rarely speaks to me but as I came too, much earlier than usual I might add, I felt drawn toward my dream girl I sent her a facebook message and a friend request and hopefully I'm not wierding her out but I felt called into action by this dream. Now I can't help but wonder if I'm crazy but idk how else to go about this. She's very attractive and seemed to b a nice person I feel obligated to take a chance. So tell me is this sumthing I made up in my head or is it fate?