REVENGE

I fell in love at 15 or so, gave up 3 years of my life, and when she got tired of me she left me. i thought about it and analyzed it for quite sometime. that was months ago now I've realized she was a total dumb-ass for leaving me, i gave her everything she wanted but i guess that gets boring. its bothered me on and off over these 7 months but I cant seem to close the case. revenge is on my mind about 12 hours a day. I can't seem to understand why it bothers me so. I've never been one to care so much, but i could always hold a grudge and it usually festers inside me till the other person attempts to correct it. this is the first time its consumed my life. my greatness is my destiny but i cant get to it w/o moving on from this girl. will getting her back for all the things she did to me going to help me? is it the only way? how does one move on from this predicament? as of right now my journey is fueled w/ this hatred. i'm moved to become something great, claiming wealth and power to destroy a life somewhere else far separated from mine by the time it comes. but the rest will go to making a better life for others. most people would see me as hero for building better tomorrows all across the globe but inside i would be a monster for ruining one life and devastating the lives attached. I would never kill or harm anyone, but the pain needs to be felt, in the pocketbook, in the heart, in the mind. a dark mind will create a dark world unless i can find another way to deal with my wants for revenge.