Emergence

I've wallowed in the pit of dependence and atoned for my own failures. At the point of acceptance with mediocre and the summit of elitism flying its flag in mockery, casting a shadow on the herd of ordinary people who had given up dreaming for practicality. I found strength. I grew strong on others' self pity, coming to terms with the facts of society. No, I need not depend on a woman for companionship or lean to a friend for advice, not even gaze up and look to God for advice. I now see the roots of the label I'd put on myself so long ago. I am a humanist. My strength comes from within, and when I look to the outside and give up control I am weak and weakness causes unhappiness. The light is finally shining on me. My dawn is rising, and what a glorious day it will be. I'm the master and commander of this vessel. I steer it through storm and sun, until night comes to claim me again. But I have learned next time I shall rest through the night instead of fighting the darkness with a candle.

I was in love with her. Kaela Maynard was a name that has haunted me for two years now but I've finally moved on I would like to apologize to anyone I hurt in the interm because whether in bed or in companionship you were not her and I unfairly held you to that standard. Kaela taught me the best things a girl can teach a guy and I am the lover and boyfriend I am now because of her. 4 girls tried to make it work and 4 girls failed because I didn't give them the attention they needed this last one made me see. Tall brunette I couldn't get past the first date because you were not the lover Kaela was and we fought about it. I want to thank you for understanding and I'm glad to call you my first friend ex. I've been able to befriend other ex's now and Kaela someday we'll be friends I'm sure. But now this man will be a man once again for the girls that come along thanx to a loud Italian girl with a seductive smile.

I'm the money guy. Money will be what I worry about until my yacht is bought paid for and sitting in a marina accessible only by helicopter from my mansion on the mountainside in Switzerland. It was all I worried about for the longest time. But now I have a plan to make money and get rich like I've always wanted. For the first time in my life I know what I want and how I'm going to get there. It feels so good to be on top of things for a change. And I've only started a month or so ago and I'm already made tons more money than usual.

I'm better I'm happier I'm more focused. I'm finding true love in social networking I believe that and currency/stock knowledge will be the keys to my future. G+ twitter and blogger are where the world is headed Facebook introduced a world to the joys of staying connected through the internet twitter showed us we're all people celebs politicians and us regulars can all tweet on the same feed. Now Google has shown people that it can be simple to bring all of your networking to one place. All one has to do is use it, and become great I'll be trying my luck as a DJ and music producer and all my exploits will be here and on twitter and on G+.

Thanx to my dudes who stood by me SK + nick